Percaya

Percaya @ yakin? To think back..since I was very young Abah has always believe in me. Every time when I 'm worried about exams, Abah will always say "Adik boleh buat, abah percaya adik boleh buat."

Sebab selalu sangat Abah ulang kata-kata ni setiap kali aku menyuarakan kerisauan apabila berhadapan dengan sedikit duri kehidupan sehingga aku yakin yang aku dapat melepasi jalan yang berduri.

Abah, orang yang tegas tapi simple. Pegangan hidup Abah sangat mudah "God is GREAT." Sebab tu Abah tak pernah peduli jika ada orang yang menikam dari belakang. Dah banyak kali orang atau kawan menganiaya Abah. Tapi Abah hanya berdiam dan meneruskan tanggungjawab Abah seperti biasa. Abah tak mengeluh.

Sekarang bila aku fikir dan hayati pegangan hidup Abah, aku sedar bukanlah mudah untuk menyerahkan segalanya pada DIA. Acapkali hati tewas dan mula menunding jari pada orang. Mencari kesilapan. Mulut mula berkata-kata mencaci dan mengumpat. Sehinggakan tanpa sedar menabur fitnah.

Abah, sehingga kini kepercayaan Abah pada Adik membuatkan Adik yakin yang Adik mampu untuk melepasi peringkat ini dalam perjalanan hidup Adik. Kepercayaan Abah pada kemampuan Adik adalah doa seorang bapa untuk anaknya. Anak yang pernah membuat air mata Abah mengalir.

Aku akan terus percaya. Dan aku akan terus yakin. DIA MAHA KUASA.

SEM and Contamination

Following my frustration, I have been able to pull myself together and start again while managing what can be safe from the previous work. And I this time around I discovered a new phenomena happening on the surface of my sintered disk. Why? It never occured before. It is not the first attempt sintering at the same temperature. No parameters have been changed but the surface changed. Could it be contamination? Contamination of what?Huh..

Here I am sitting in my lab trying to figure out what had happened. After hours of spending my time in the lonely room downstairs trying to get a good SEM pictures. And after many trials..finally I do get a so-so SEM picture. Better then the previous trial. A pat on my back for this though...something to smile of for today.

I should go back now. Tomorrow is a new day. A new discovery.

Through The Rain

through the rain
by: mariah carey

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you're distraught and in pain
Without anyone

We keep prayin' to saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't

Find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on

Step fastly
And you'll find what you need
To prepare
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind moves
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face

And sure they tell you
You'll never pull through
Don't hesitate
Stay calm and sane

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I'm a stranger and will always be a stranger in this land.

Frust

After one month of working and preparing my samples finally it has been destined that all my samples are now 'gomi'. Therefore, all my one month work is useless. Arghhh...

I have 3 months or so before my holiday and right now I don't think I will have enough time to get good results to show my dear sensei.

Today, its the 'semangat yang hilang' day. Huhuhhuh...I feel like cancelling my Aidilfitri holiday. Bole dapat refund ker?

Arghhhh.....

Ya Allah bantulah hambaMu yang lemah ini. Permudahkan perjalanan pengajian ku ya Allah, ya Rabb. Amin.