Percaya

Percaya @ yakin? To think back..since I was very young Abah has always believe in me. Every time when I 'm worried about exams, Abah will always say "Adik boleh buat, abah percaya adik boleh buat."

Sebab selalu sangat Abah ulang kata-kata ni setiap kali aku menyuarakan kerisauan apabila berhadapan dengan sedikit duri kehidupan sehingga aku yakin yang aku dapat melepasi jalan yang berduri.

Abah, orang yang tegas tapi simple. Pegangan hidup Abah sangat mudah "God is GREAT." Sebab tu Abah tak pernah peduli jika ada orang yang menikam dari belakang. Dah banyak kali orang atau kawan menganiaya Abah. Tapi Abah hanya berdiam dan meneruskan tanggungjawab Abah seperti biasa. Abah tak mengeluh.

Sekarang bila aku fikir dan hayati pegangan hidup Abah, aku sedar bukanlah mudah untuk menyerahkan segalanya pada DIA. Acapkali hati tewas dan mula menunding jari pada orang. Mencari kesilapan. Mulut mula berkata-kata mencaci dan mengumpat. Sehinggakan tanpa sedar menabur fitnah.

Abah, sehingga kini kepercayaan Abah pada Adik membuatkan Adik yakin yang Adik mampu untuk melepasi peringkat ini dalam perjalanan hidup Adik. Kepercayaan Abah pada kemampuan Adik adalah doa seorang bapa untuk anaknya. Anak yang pernah membuat air mata Abah mengalir.

Aku akan terus percaya. Dan aku akan terus yakin. DIA MAHA KUASA.

SEM and Contamination

Following my frustration, I have been able to pull myself together and start again while managing what can be safe from the previous work. And I this time around I discovered a new phenomena happening on the surface of my sintered disk. Why? It never occured before. It is not the first attempt sintering at the same temperature. No parameters have been changed but the surface changed. Could it be contamination? Contamination of what?Huh..

Here I am sitting in my lab trying to figure out what had happened. After hours of spending my time in the lonely room downstairs trying to get a good SEM pictures. And after many trials..finally I do get a so-so SEM picture. Better then the previous trial. A pat on my back for this though...something to smile of for today.

I should go back now. Tomorrow is a new day. A new discovery.

Through The Rain

through the rain
by: mariah carey

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you're distraught and in pain
Without anyone

We keep prayin' to saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't

Find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on

Step fastly
And you'll find what you need
To prepare
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind moves
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face

And sure they tell you
You'll never pull through
Don't hesitate
Stay calm and sane

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I'm a stranger and will always be a stranger in this land.

Frust

After one month of working and preparing my samples finally it has been destined that all my samples are now 'gomi'. Therefore, all my one month work is useless. Arghhh...

I have 3 months or so before my holiday and right now I don't think I will have enough time to get good results to show my dear sensei.

Today, its the 'semangat yang hilang' day. Huhuhhuh...I feel like cancelling my Aidilfitri holiday. Bole dapat refund ker?

Arghhhh.....

Ya Allah bantulah hambaMu yang lemah ini. Permudahkan perjalanan pengajian ku ya Allah, ya Rabb. Amin.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, after 'donating' 12 150 yen I finally get my JAPANESE DRIVING LICENSE. Fuhhhh.....leeeeegaaaaa hati ini. It was my 3rd try that I managed to get through the exam. Nak kata susah takde ler susah cuma sebab dah lama drive so ada certain habit ler yang tak dapat nak ditanggalkan. Contohnya, kat corner sebelum sampai line dah tengok kiri kanan and just slow down the car, bila takde on coming cars terus jer jalan. Don't really stop the car....kantoi ler jawabnya.

Then, mana pernah pusing kepala 90 darjah nak tengok kereta belakang. Actually, bukan ler tak pernah but memang jarang-jarang sangat ler buat macam tuh just jeling-jeling manja jer tengok kereta belakang. Betul ler memang kena jadik Azean Irdawaty untuk exegerate kan lakonan. Susah jugak nak berlakon ni.

After my 2nd failure, the whole night I was memorizing the route dan bayangkan lakonan yang nak dilakonkan..sampai terbawa-bawa ke dalam mimpi. Dahsyat sungguh penangan nak ambik test memandu di Japan. Masa ambik SPM dulu pun tak pernah mimpi jawab soalan exam.
Ishk!ishk!ishk!

Alhamdulillah, dah settle urusan lesen ni. Lepas ni boleh ler panjang langkah tanpa risau sangat-sangat. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

Lab on Saturday

Today, for the 1st time after 7 months here, I went to the lab on Saturday. And yes, I drag along my little hero, Danish. And also yes, alhamdulillah, I did accomplished what I intended to do today. Hooray!!

With Danish along, work that can be done in 10 minutes come up to 20 minutes with he by my side. And also I think the other lab in the same floor could here him screaming along the corridor playing with his toys. Luckily, Kak Ira and her daughter, Rafifa, was also around. Mana ler tau kot-kot terbakar plak lab tuh...

Danish was sleeping on my 'super bike' during our way back today as he did not get his afternoon nap in the lab earlier. He did well behave today. Lain kali boleh ler bawak lagi bila terpaksa...

I had to go to the lab today as maybe next week I might be absent because I think I'm gonna try to get my Japanese driving license next week. Ganbatte ok....hopefully I'll be lucky enough to get it through once.

Cerita yang menyeramkan..ramai jer yang kena repeat. Huhuhuh...lesen memandu Malaysia pun amek 2 kali...wakakkaa...kantoi ler...

Wish me luck...

14 days till Mak's arrival

Malaysian in Fukuoka Family Day

Well, I guessed its gonna be all about the Family Day which was held last Saturday on the 16th of May at Keya Beach on every Malaysian living in Fukuoka's blogs. So, for the whole details do visit the blogs on my sidebar.

On my part, I really enjoyed the whole thing. And so is my son. Who is as free as bird to play with as much sands as he likes. No Ibu to say NO...

All of us were given our parts to prepare the foods. I was asked to prepare the BBQ chicken. Me preparing BBQ chicken? I have never done it before...warghhh....takut tak sedop!!! So..a week before that...this conversation with my 'belahan jiwa' happened

"Abang, camne ni nak perap ayam BBQ? Tak pernah buat nih...gabra tahap gaban dah ni!!!"

"Alah..releks ler Sayang. Amek resepi ni...bla bla bla..." (resepi adalah rahsia muahahahha..)

"Betul ker nih Abang? Sedap tak nih? Nanti orang makan tak sedap..tak best ler. Nak jamu orang nih."

"Buat ler...insyaallah sedap."

So, in the name of ALLAH, I prepared the chicken. I actually got worried about the whole chicken thing for a week. I can easily get stressed up with all this cooking things or prepare any foods that is gonna be eaten for any occasion. Lomah lutut bab memasak ni weysss.....jangan ler suruh masak nasi beriyani ker apa ker yang canggih-canggih..

And alhamdullilah, syukur kepada ALLAH yang memberi rasa, my BBQ chicken was acceptable to be eaten and before the end of the BBQ, my BBQ chicken is finished. Ada jugak yang tak sempat merasa. And Kak Yati said,

"Pasni boleh ler bukak Nura's Chicken Wing!" Wakakakaka....

So, here are some pics from my camera...

the sandy beach

the boy who wanna have fun

At the end of the day, everybody had fun. But something was missing...my 'belahan jiwa' is not here. Therefore, there wouldn't be many pictures in here as I'm not that much of a photographer.